When Almighty Desires!

I wonder at times..  i was born when my papa was 40 yrs old. i'm the youngest [22 yrs] out of the four children he has. And the eldest is of 34 yrs something, i don't exactly remember his age. The best days I remember with him are those when ... * He bought me, my first princess Barbie, way back in 1993, It was an imported Doll in India and way too COSTLY. *We both used to go to park to exercise daily, from jogging, playing Frisbee, lazying over the green grass to catching BUTTERFLIES. *He used to bring and keep animals to increase our "general knowledge" we have  ......... kept...........a baby EAGLE, A wild Green bird, a sparrow, many chickens, pair of DUCKS, several dogs, Grey Pigeons, cats, Rabbits, and others which can never come in pet category like leeches! he brought a caterpillar once and showed his life cycle to us! he kept in an airy jar, with leaves and flowers freshly plucked from the park everyday ... it grew into a pupa to a b'ful and ...

My Days and Nights I can not lie and say that I am not enjoying my solace these days.. in fact i am loner by heart so I enjoy being lonely and  there are certain things which at times take my mind out to the unnatural openings and shake me to the core when I realize they can never be The Truth. These days I keep myself busy with one and only Stephenie Meyer's Twilight Saga and I'm about to finish my Book no.2 by tomorrow morning, which is New Moon. Half of the time when I'm not reading it, then I'm reading about the cast and crew and places where the movie has been shot.  The twilight saga actually ate me to the core and I must not deny I have always loved imagination and my prior love award has been fetched by  J.K.Rowling for her opera hat writing and imagining outstanding characters out of nowhere. That's a real talent.  Actually when I was taking my final exams I was told by a pal's sister that the New Moon movie was a "must watch" in HER list...

But a  new battle  has already begun....  Does that intervene with my mood for now? At least now i can sound relived because i have courageously taken all  the ups and down in this month of my Final X semester exams of Law school ...five years of rigorous studies are over. Finally.. the unsettled cloud of dust ballooning my happiness has settled finally! Not only i am relieved from the pressure of completing my grad as a Law student.. but because i learned many things in this final battle of mind and soul... personal and professional life..my attachment and detachment from worldly affairs...How God saved me and brought me up again... i have learned that one has to keep both the things (personal and professional) on opposite ends of the string only then you can face challenges in a better way otherwise you might get stuck up and entangled and end up being  rather confused or have a nervous break down. Thankfully, i got enormous support from my f...

I know i'm being a little tired of being myself and i need someone to exchange my life with at least for a couple of days but then i think it's better to live with what I m destined for rather than looking at others and saying their life rock! i know no one's life can ever rock... Back to my "Not so happy" updates. I'm taking my exams one by one as the days come... my first was on 11th , then 14th and then 18th of May, now i have second last on 25th and last on 2nd June! the nice part is that we all friends study on fone for the exam othrwise we USED study together (in person) but now we dont beacause of untimely errors in my life. I have given my dog "Lucky" in adoption to a person who's in Police, I HAD to GIVE away my dog because from past many months my Pesky neighbors were making it a big issue that it is causing nuisance in the neighborhood! It was the toughest decision that I had to take because Lucky was and is My dog.. so i had to sup...

"What lies ahead?" I have started enjoying the worst days of my life as I cant do anything more than that specially when I'm becoming the victim of circumstances again and again. When i'm being targeted to "take the test of Patience.." A few days before things started changing in a better direction and i can say it was all fine and with a fresh start I thought that I will give my final Law exams and will bid adieu to my dear Faculty of law and my beautiful University. as this is the Final X semester of my 5 year law graduation and at last i can be a graduate!It was a time for which I eagerly waited to know that what will happen after this? A normal 22 year old (gurl) will definitely relate such period with the feeling of butterflies in stomach... isn't it?

A heartfelt sorry Dear fellow bloggers, im sorry.... i deleted my previous 50 posts on this  blog...i couldnt read your posts or write my own story...as i never felt to do anything... i was silent.... i was upset.. extremely upset.. i went through an upheaval of emotions lately through the months of February and March. God provided me strength in that time and yes, it were  your blessings, dear friends, that I could actually lift myself up from the ashes exactly like a phoenix. Some extreme bad phases mostly change your personality.. some extremely horrendous realities shake you to the core. thankfully im alright now.. i have collected myself up.. i have gathered my soul and tied it with my heart again... i can say now that im returning to my normal self.. i have almost recovered from the pain of emotional turmoil. it happened with me... I kept walking on the sand and saw my footprints... together with God's footsteps each time when i turned my back..... i saw them ri...