But a new battle has already begun....
Does that intervene with my mood for now?
At least now i can sound relived because i have courageously taken all the ups and down in this month of my Final X semester exams of Law school ...five years of rigorous studies are over. Finally.. the unsettled cloud of dust ballooning my happiness has settled finally!
Not only i am relieved from the pressure of completing my grad as a Law student.. but because i learned many things in this final battle of mind and soul... personal and professional life..my attachment and detachment from worldly affairs...How God saved me and brought me up again...
i have learned that one has to keep both the things (personal and professional) on opposite ends of the string only then you can face challenges in a better way otherwise you might get stuck up and entangled and end up being rather confused or have a nervous break down.
Thankfully, i got enormous support from my family all through these five years of law studies and of course from.. my beloved fiance Faheim , whose name i can never fail to mention. i still remember how my dad never wanted me to take up law studies though my half brother is a successful lawyer, i remember they wanted me to get admission in psychology for which i was sure it would be the last thing on earth i could trade with if i had no choice ever ever ever left. An 18 year old's challenge that I can make my life as a lawyer was not very well welcomed by my family, honestly speaking they had doubts !
yes.. i am stubborn about choices and i want to follow them headstrong and God's constant love gives me better choices to choose from, so I never regret them. After all i can never doubt the plans, the troubles are created by us and not by God.. so i even can't Blame him... He gave me a chance to make out positive or negative.. its up to me now what i want to make out of it?
My last exam was of french, which was a l'il tough this time.. maybe i couldn't study well, else we will see the scores in August. every body at college was asking me out "what are you gonna get after this?" "joining a firm?" "litigation sound good, you have good communication skills, why not try heading to the court?" "sitting for the bar exam?"
The last question was the worst ! sitting fir the Bar exam... in India Bar exams... as such never ever happened and they should not happen as we are extensively populated country for one ... and secondly i don't want to study again all that law course... till for a period of one year! i need REST..
The bar exam issue is still on hold, lets see what comes up with.. if it happens i will give the exam ( not so happily) and if it doesn't happen then i will hurry up for registration ( very happily) ..
Now the question is what am i going to do till i get my result declared??
on 2nd June I threw a party at my place and called my gang of girls 'Shruti, Rav and Sana came .. one could not come.Zarmeen. and we missed her a lot, we had food and dance... wow.. it turned up awesome !
on weekend Zarmeen turned up at my place we had lunch and her favorite and now mine too Belgian dark Ice cream.. yummy
late night I downloaded the e-books of Twilight and New moon.. i have seen the movies and they are simply beautiful, waiting eagerly for the third one on June 30 for its release - Eclipse. once i finish reading them up I will download the rest two books of the series.
I have started reading it since morning, and i'm too much involved with the vampire's love affair that it leaves a feeling of absolute delight in me. Vampires can be that much loving, I never knew ! im almost finished with the book... so will start its second part by tomorrow.
one thing which is very different about me, is that I am practical and imaginary person one and the same time, this thing has always given me a good time handling with my own moods as i can get the points right by hitting on them by way of imagination.For example the Vampire stuff sounds low for my age of 22 but... it makes me forget the Next battle which i have to boss and stands right in front of me..
Where I will fit in this world? whether I will make Positive or negative with the Opportunity i get ?
Anyways.. mom is away for a month, so i'm cooking and cleaning all through the day, and when i get time, i will get laundry done. heaps of clothes are piled up even on the side ironing stand placed next to the washing machine. all these clothes are MINE so i will have to wash them.
for now.. Ciao..
Feeling GOOD actually... problems in striking a balance occurs most of the time!