Monday, June 21, 2010


I wonder at times..  i was born when my papa was 40 yrs old.
i'm the youngest [22 yrs] out of the four children he has. And the eldest is of 34 yrs something, i don't exactly remember his age.

The best days I remember with him are those when ...

* He bought me, my first princess Barbie, way back in 1993, It was an imported Doll in India and way too COSTLY.

*We both used to go to park to exercise daily, from jogging, playing Frisbee, lazying over the green grass to catching BUTTERFLIES.

*He used to bring and keep animals to increase our "general knowledge" we have  ......... kept...........a baby EAGLE, A wild Green bird, a sparrow, many chickens, pair of DUCKS, several dogs, Grey Pigeons, cats, Rabbits, and others which can never come in pet category like leeches!

he brought a caterpillar once and showed his life cycle to us! he kept in an airy jar, with leaves and flowers freshly plucked from the park everyday ... it grew into a pupa to a b'ful and Large butterfly!! It was amazing experience when we saw it flying.. and hovering on flowers for its first taste of nectar!

* We both used to go to Book fairs and buy  books and encyclopedia for me, a fun pass time we used to do reading about animals and  developments in science. he introduced "computer" to me..

* He bought me my first thick "Enid Blyton book, the Enchanted Tree"  and I stepped in my world of imagination and stayed there.

* He used to drive me to my "high school" and when i feared for the examination, he used to take me to walks after I took my exam and we DISCUSSED my exam. Yes, he used to drop me to my school and picked me as well.

* He used to engross himself completely when i took my "Senior High School" examinations. and Taught me Political Science and Sociology. how can I forget English!!!  Growing up in a family of teachers added to my advantage!

* He was angry but then calmed over MY decision to be a lawyer.

*He has always paid my Tuition fees, books, leisure money, cinema tickets, shoes, allowances, party expenditures... every  thing I own is bought from his hard earned Money. 

*He recommended "withania's use for my thyroid" 

*now when he asks me to switch off the lights.. he wants to sleep in completely dark room.. i see him getting old...

*whenever  Faheim and I  sit together.. he looks pleased.. at least he knows,he has inculcated in me the best attitide a father could provide to his daughter...

I have never taken any of my relationship for granted .. if its with Faheim, 9 years old relationship or with my dad, 23 yrs old relationship. I'm serious about them.

[My papa, is a Prof. of English language, and a Doctor of Naturopathy [ Alternative Medicines] and spl. in Yoga. ]

Happy Papa's day to All.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

These are

My Days and Nights

I can not lie and say that I am not enjoying my solace these days.. in fact i am loner by heart so I enjoy being lonely and  there are certain things which at times take my mind out to the unnatural openings and shake me to the core when I realize they can never be The Truth.

These days I keep myself busy with one and only Stephenie Meyer's Twilight Saga and I'm about to finish my Book no.2 by tomorrow morning, which is New Moon. Half of the time when I'm not reading it, then I'm reading about the cast and crew and places where the movie has been shot. 

The twilight saga actually ate me to the core and I must not deny I have always loved imagination and my prior love award has been fetched by  J.K.Rowling for her opera hat writing and imagining outstanding characters out of nowhere. That's a real talent. 

Actually when I was taking my final exams I was told by a pal's sister that the New Moon movie was a "must watch" in HER list. So she kept telling me the story on the way to home (as a thing she love most... a full movie synopsis and later her personalized viewer comments ) I was actually taken by her way of discussing that Vampire movie and I was so much engrossed that I decided to buy see it. Consequently, rented a DVD and played it on the computer. By chance there was a mistake.. I got hold of the New Moon movie and she told me the story starting from TWILIGHT - to- NEW MOON. 

Obviously a person seeing the 6th Harry Potter movie for the first time won't get what the Potter boy was up to and what the hell VOLDMORT IS or was, whatever ?  It's a series and has to be studied  seen in a series. From Book 1 always... to grab the actual taste of the Novel...alright.

I somehow, recollected what all she uttered and muttered on the way and then enjoyed  reading watching the novel !  Anyways when the movie got over, I wanted to see the first part and second again  searched on internet for free TWILIGHT MOVIE OR e-book download. 

After a lot of research struggle, I got it { the book I mean} on one website which was being distributed for  educational purposes.. I THOUGHT which teacher doesn't want its student to know when the students  come across a GOLDEN eyed Guy or Girl they must not forget its HUMAN friendly Vampire and should not forget they are not dangerous! 

hmm.. next day I saw the first part and then the second as well.. and how I wished that all this was true. Silly.  

Of course, the vampire's making news everywhere, and the Brit lad really played his part well, not well but exceptionally well.. But i was little depressed with  the very normal Kristen Stewart. I hope she brushes up her "mumbling word problem" in the next movie.. and if not next then next to next ..  i wonder after twilight saga is brought up in the motion series will i ever care to watch the female actor so breezily as i now do! Hmm... if her mumbling problem is solved by then.. then why not?

Sope.. This is all I care about these days and nights.. from past two nights I am looking like a vampire... more... as my dad says "late hours" and switches off the lights pushing us to the another room.. and there too he keeps peeping whether  me and my insomniac sister have slept or not?

actually, its a NO.. because me engrossed in my vampy land and My sister R  in her  un romantic novels have built-in torch in our mobile fones.. and we switch them ON as soon as the lights goes OFF .. heehee.. and read two to three chapters each  night till i think i can't make it anymore .. each chapter consisting of not less than 10 pages. 

well when i wake up at 4 am in the morning for my morning prayers "Namaz" I see my sisters still reading her  un romantic novel.. no idea how she manages it.. and she thinks the SAME for me.. I reckon.. ☺

Anyways.. this is hard at times to think and know and say that Vampires don't exist .. yes yes yes they are a bad species.. but what if they existed and by chance i get to meet them?


Monday, June 7, 2010

The Battle is Over

But a  new battle  has already begun.... 

Does that intervene with my mood for now?

At least now i can sound relived because i have courageously taken all  the ups and down in this month of my Final X semester exams of Law school ...five years of rigorous studies are over. Finally.. the unsettled cloud of dust ballooning my happiness has settled finally!

Not only i am relieved from the pressure of completing my grad as a Law student.. but because i learned many things in this final battle of mind and soul... personal and professional attachment and detachment from worldly affairs...How God saved me and brought me up again...

i have learned that one has to keep both the things (personal and professional) on opposite ends of the string only then you can face challenges in a better way otherwise you might get stuck up and entangled and end up being  rather confused or have a nervous break down.

Thankfully, i got enormous support from my family all through these five years of law studies and of course from.. my beloved fiance Faheim , whose name i can never fail to mention. i still remember how my dad never wanted me to take up law studies though my half brother is a successful lawyer, i remember they wanted me to get admission in psychology for which i was sure it would be the last thing on earth i could trade with if i had no choice ever ever ever left. An 18 year old's challenge that I can make my life as a lawyer was not very well welcomed by my family, honestly speaking they had doubts !

yes.. i am stubborn about choices and i want to follow them headstrong and God's constant love gives me better choices to choose from, so I never regret them. After all i can never doubt the plans, the troubles are created by us and not by God.. so i even can't Blame him... He gave me a chance to make out positive or negative.. its up to me now what i want to make out of it? 

My last exam was of french, which was a l'il tough this time.. maybe i couldn't study well, else we will see the scores in August. every body at college was asking me out "what are you gonna get after this?" "joining a firm?" "litigation sound good, you have good communication skills, why not try heading to the court?" "sitting for the bar exam?"

The last question was the worst ! sitting fir the Bar exam...  in India Bar exams... as such never ever happened and they should not happen as we are extensively populated country for one ... and secondly i don't want to study again all that law course... till for a period of one year! i need REST..  

The bar exam issue is still on hold, lets see what comes up with.. if it happens i will give the exam ( not so happily) and if it doesn't happen then  i will hurry up for registration ( very happily) .. 

Now the question is what am i going to do till i get my result declared?? 

on 2nd June I threw a party at my place and called my gang of girls 'Shruti, Rav and Sana came .. one could not come.Zarmeen. and we missed her a lot, we had  food and dance... wow.. it turned up awesome !

on weekend Zarmeen turned up at my place we had lunch and her favorite and now mine too Belgian dark Ice cream.. yummy 

late night I downloaded the e-books of Twilight and New moon.. i have seen the movies and they are simply beautiful, waiting eagerly for the third one on June 30 for its release - Eclipse. once i finish reading them up I will download the  rest two books of the series. 

I have started reading it since morning, and i'm too much involved with the vampire's love affair that it leaves a feeling of absolute delight in me. Vampires can be that much loving, I never knew ! im almost finished with the book... so will start its second part by tomorrow.

one thing which is very different about me, is that I am practical and imaginary person one and the same time, this thing has always given me a good time handling with my own moods as i can get the points right by hitting on them by way of imagination.For example the Vampire stuff sounds low for my age of 22 but... it makes me forget the Next battle which i have to boss and stands right in front of me..

Where I will fit in this world? whether I will make Positive or negative with the Opportunity i get ?

Anyways.. mom is away for a month, so i'm cooking and cleaning all through the day, and when i get time, i will get laundry done. heaps of clothes are piled up even on the side ironing stand placed next to the washing machine. all these clothes are MINE so i will have to wash them.

for now.. Ciao.. 

Feeling GOOD actually... problems in striking a balance occurs most of the time!

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